On Maha Shivaratri


In response to RDP Tuesday

Ragtag Daily Prompt

Today’s Prompt : Celebration

The prayer hall.

The silence as always tranquilizing.

There were seekers already seated.

Shadows lingered with light.

A little more than an hour later …

I realised the emptyness.

Stepping outside towards the exit…

I saw her…

Sitting on a bench in the small passage.

Our eyes met.

We smiled instantly.

Strangers but a singular quest.

Did I see myself in her eyes ?

***

It was still dark.

Even the birds were asleep.

I walked slowly towards the temple – a copper pot balanced in my hand.

It was not so crowded.

Devotees poured their quiet offerings.

Amidst the soft chant of  mantras.

Worship without flourish.

I walked out…

***

Crossing the narrow lane into the park.

A few walkers silently shared the path.

I paced unhurriedly.

The cadence of stillness.

The sky lightened in colour.

A young girl with a copper pot full to the brim.

Suddenly, she smiled, “Jai Bhole!”

I nodded back smilingly.

Strangers…

Yet…

***

A prayer rises to my lips

Let the world be trodden by

The Children of the Immortal

Peace

Peace

Peace

Let every pious prayer be

A celebration of peace.

Gates


I was thinking of gates today.

Gates to power

Gates to a new phase of life

Gates to charity

Gates to compassion and kindness

Gates to spirituality

The word gate signifies a world of things.

What does the word gate signify to you ?

The Sailor And The Bird


This is in response to Sadje’s Weekly Photo Prompts on #Whatdoyousee

The boat swayed with

The gentle breeze

The waves mirrored the sun

The bird sitting on the tree

Chirped merrily along

“O sailor! Never say goodbye

We’ll soon meet again

You on some other shore

Me on some other sky

Be it autumn or maybe spring

Time will tell where

You may need paper and ink

I need my chirpy cheer

You have your boat

You have your waves

You have your breeze

You have your lores

I have merely puny strength

And a pair of wings to dare

O sailor ! Do not despair

We have our vows to adhere”

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Once Again Christie


Just finished listening to the audio version of Agatha Christie’s Murder On The Orient Express (1934) also published in the US as Murder In The Calais Coach.

A Murder Mystery which fascinates the readers with its intrigue but the climactic denouement fills the heart with sadness reinforcing the appalling unfairness of a crime committed not only against a loving family but also against humanity itself.

Samuel Ratchett aka Cassetti,  the brutal kidnapper and killer of a little American girl, Daisy Armstrong, is aboard the elegant Orient Express. Though he goes scot free taking advantage of legal loopholes, Ratchett has of late been receiving threats to his life.

On the same train is the famous ‘little’  Belgian detective, Hercule Poirot. Ratchett approaches Poirot to take up his case but Poirot refuses because he does not like his face.

On the same train, are twelve other passengers of different nationalities. There is also Monsieur Bouc, a fellow Belgian and the Director of the Train Operating Company who is  Poirot’s friend and a Greek medical doctor Stavros Constantine and the Train Conductors.

However, the journey is stalled when the train gets stuck due to heavy snow in between Vinkcovci and Brod (Northeastern Croatia). The next morning Ratchett is found murdered in his compartment with twelve stab wounds on his body.

The murderer could have boarded the train at Vinkcovci, assaulted Ratchett and got down again or he/she could be still inside  amongst the twelve other passengers.

On Bouc’s request, Poirot takes up the case. With the help of Dr. Constantine, who examines the dead body and confirms the time of death and Bouc, Poirot interrogates the passengers one by one till he is able to lay bare an immaculate plan of revenge and retribution.

Murder On The Orient Express is inspired by the 1932 kidnapping and murder of 20-month-old Charles Lindbergh Jr., son of famous aviator Charles Lindbergh –  a real-life tragedy, where a ransom was paid yet the child was not returned but found murdered causing international uproar. A maid in the Lindbergh household, Violet Sharp, committed suicide after being relentlessly questioned by the Police.

The setting of the stalled journey is based on Christie’s firsthand experience aboard the train including a 1929 incident where the Orient Express was stuck in a snowdrift for six days.

This is one of the first Christie that I read in Bangla (translated version) and strangely  never thought of re-reading the original. I also realised while listening to the audio narration that the presentation not only requires strong storytelling but also authentic scripting, appropriate sound design and effect, honest dramatization , effective background score, superb voice acting and a whole lot of other production paraphernalia to reach out and captivate a wide audience. Kudos to Mirchi Sunday Suspense for that.

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Sharing A Poem


This poem made me wonder.

What does the poet mean when he says, “I love not Man the less, but Nature more” ?

Does Nature have to offer something more than what is received through human interaction ?

What does it have to offer that surpass what we get from humans?

Or is it merely the poet’s personal choice ?

Of course! Human interaction is important but need not necessarily be always comforting and caring.

But Nature always gives – beauty , serenity, joy and wonderment.

It does not take away anything from us (if it’s not calamitous).

And at times Nature makes us aware of something greater than us, thereby, humbling us and making us revisit the meaning of life and our miniscule existence in this ever expanding cosmos. 

What do you feel when you are amidst Nature?

What is your choice – human interaction or presence amidst Nature ?

If you were to choose between partying all night and watching a gorgeous beauty and epiphanic wonder of Nature (like the Northern Lights) which one will you prefer out of the two?

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Over-Drive


This is in response to Esther’s Weekly Word Prompt.

This week’s prompt is : Drive

Over-Drive

Once my superior wrote in my yearly appraisal :” She has the exceptional ability to take up any assignment.”

This remark levitated me to unscalable heights and convinced me that I was a Jack of all trades till it came to driving.

My first (yes, I had many) driving lessons were on a Motor Driving School vehicle where the actual control (clutch, brake, accelerator) remains with the trainer. The trainee at best learns to balance the car and drive straight. The school’s curriculum also includes motivating the students to believe that they are born to  drive. I believed them wholeheartedly and that was my undoing.

The second training (after a gap of a few years) was with a driver from Haryana. Haryanvis are known to be rough, tough and gruff. This was the phase when I was happily going to run over a side walker. On the concluding day of the training session he wrapped up saying ,”Aapko aata sab kuchh hai par aap kuchh kartey nahin ho.” You know everything but you don’t do anything.

The actual test was learning on my own car with the trainer by my side. I was to drive following his verbal instructions. He said he was a heart patient but smoked like a chimney. Much later he told me it was to deal with the stress of monitoring me at the wheels.

After battering a light pole, shoving the tyres into a parked SUV (please don’t ask me how), getting the bumper bashed in coupled with a mind that wandered into wonderland in any moving vehicle I realised I was not meant for driving. Moreover, the perpetual paranoia about all other vehicles on the road determined to have a collision with mine I finally decided I’d better be driven than being the driver.

Now that my Driving License (Well! I still have one)  needs renewal I am procrastinating. Considering the safety of the pedestrians, the durability of the light poles, the survival of the other vehicles on the road and the probability that I may have to showcase my driving skills to the RTO (Regional Transport Office) before securing a go ahead for the License I guess I should finally give the thought a rest.

What say you???

The Unwanted


I observe the person almost every day taking the metro at a particular station and getting down at my stop. To be very honest I do not know how to address the man (or woman) – whether to use the pronoun ‘he’ or ‘she’ in reference. But by virtue of the fact that the person always boards the lady’s coach, respecting the decision, I decide to include her in the feminine gender.

She stands quietly, neatly clad in a well starched saree with matching blouse ( a different one each day), her well-combed hair wound in a tight bun, her powdered face, her heavily kohled eyes, her glossy lips – every subtle and gross nuance about her indicate a desperate attempt to be feminine, she is ready and poised to join the ‘work force’ for her daily grub.

Nobody looks at her. Have they forgotten to react? No, perhaps the boarders have accepted her as one of them? Just a bit of wishful thinking on my part! I wonder what will be their reaction if she comes to occupy the seat next to them. Will they cringe in disgust or be as indifferent as they are now with her standing tall amidst the gathering?

There is something poignant about the way she conducts herself. Pulling the saree over her ill proportioned body, a little self consciously, watching her fellow commuters openly, without guile or envy. She just stares at them lost in her own thoughts.

When she de-boards, she takes the route opposite mine towards the main road. I am sure she must be heading to the nearest traffic light. Hers must be the evening shift. Pleading and haggling with the drivers or vehicle owners for a few currency notes or coins. I wonder how much she must be earning a day.

These are my private musings as I watch her. I am sure others do too. I shall be glad if they do because somewhere behind these thoughts concern peeps and concern is the first step to change.

I wish she is treated with dignity like any other normal human being as long as she does not thrust her chest forward and puts her hands together in that inimical resounding clap, as long as she does not mouth a blessing or an abuse, as long as she does not compel the moving crowd at the traffic signal to part with a few penny for her imminent survival, as long as she does not go back to the hell hole that is her life…..the list is quite long.

I am sure one day we shall all think a little differently and treat her not just as a detested piece of flesh and bones but merely as another specimen of the creed known as the homo-sapiens. One day, I am sure, we will accept her in our office, school, college, market, mall, showrooms. One day we shall raise our voice in unison against the prevalent separatism that makes us differentiate one from the rest and bestow her the much deserved honour of a breathing soul in our midst.

One day I am sure we shall wake up and value our fellow human beings irrespective of their caste, creed, religion, birth, colour, language and all other forms of divide, without grouse or hatred.

One day I am sure the sun will shine brighter on this soil and the moon beam shall embalm the aspirations, big or small, of the toiling masses.

One day I am sure our days and nights will be merrier with hope and care.

Till then lets pray for awakening, enlightenment and trust. Shall we?

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Emotion Management


There are days when I feel completely de-energised and exhausted without having done much. I have often thought why. The answer comes this morning.

Those are the days when a word lands like a power punch, a conversation does not shape the way  expected, a message conveys how misunderstood I am, a behaviour requires to be corrected but I am not getting the appropriate opportunity to communicate, an expectation  remains unfulfilled, a well thought out plan  boomerangs. And there I am consumed by guilt, anger, desperation, remorse, feeling ineffective.

It has gradually dawned on me that all such exchanges – be it verbal or written – involve emotional engagement from two very different perspectives – the one at the giving end and the other at the receiving end.  The one at the giving end is venting it out. The one at the receiving end is absorbing. In both cases it is tiring.

While ventilation may seem de-stressing, it is not always so. It has its repercussions. Whereas absorbing can be painfully disturbing, guilt invoking, annoying and devaluing self esteem.

The outcome?

Overthinking … Brooding … Analysing… Self castigation… Entering into a self rectification overdrive. All these actions and reactions again reinstate the process of emotional investment. That is I expend more and more emotion in figuring out what has gone wrong , why it has gone wrong and how to right the wrong.

The longer the process the more emotions I invest into it.

Result ?

Exhaustion.

More specifically, emotional exhaustion which manifests in physical and mental exhaustion.

And all these three stages are avoidable.

How ?

Tutoring the mind.

Being at the giving end I guess I should employ  the traditional method. Think twice before embarking on a battle of words. Take into consideration the other person’s perspective. And discuss or have a conversation rather than resort to a one sided verbal barrage. All these steps are an exercise in self control –  not easy but still doable if I make up my mind.

Being at the receiving end before going on a guilt or remorse trip its wiser to focus on the cause, logic and rationale behind the altercation. I must figure out whether there is an exploitative note in the exchange or a move towards over expectation.

If it’s either it’s time to revisit the equation. If it’s not introspection is necessary.

It’s better to give myself time, thought and perspective rather than immediately jumping on the bandwagon of hedging relationships from the risk of disintegration.

The more clear I am in my perspective the less is the extent of emotional erosion.

Self defence, physical or emotional, is my prerogative and nobody can take it away from me.

The Walk


This is in response to Rochelle’s Weekly Photo Prompt for Friday Fictioneers.

Word Count: 100

“It’s always a pleasure talking to you ma’am.”

He opened the car door and gestured gallantly for me to alight.

We walked down the boulevard.

He was ex-army. Tall. Strongly built. With a pronounced limp.

We had met at a charity. Then on another occasion…Then again…

At first reticent he had gradually opened up.

And talked about the war, his nightmares, his dead wife…children settled abroad.

I listened.

Offered him coffee when his eyes misted.

He’d thank me profusely for listening to him patiently.

I’d smile back.

It’s a month now.

I am still waiting…

(97 Words)

***

You can read the other stories here

Footnote:

When I was into writing short stories my friends would request me to write something romantic. I thought spooky stuff was my forte. I am afraid this is the best I can come up with respect to romance.

Babaji…


Rai babu caught hold of me the day the temple was to be inaugurated.

“You must come with me to the inauguration. Babaji himself will be coming”, He said reverentially.

“You know me Rai babu. I am not into all this,” I said

“Oh come now! It may bring you back to faith.” Rai babu insisted.

***

That evening we were right in front of the big iron gate of the temple across the main road.

It was crowded to say the least.

The devotees, the curious and a few like me had been waiting for hours for the temple gate to be opened. More so for a glimpse of the mystical Babaji…It was said that the temple was his divine vision. The shivalinga placed inside was said to have been carried by him straight from the Himalayas.

Needless to say, Babaji’s disciples ran into thousands

My calf muscles had started to hurt. Before the cramps set in I pleaded with Rai babu to let me go.

“God only knows when your Babaji will give darshan.”

But Rai babu was adamant. He had this staunch belief that one look at Babaji and I would be completely transformed.

An hour later as I was about to make an impatient exit (to Rai babu’s chagrin), a sleek, shining Honda City glided to a halt in front of the humungous crowd. The car doors opened to first let out the well-armed body guards and then the tall, lanky figure of the Babaji in saffron.

He folded both arms in a gesture of pranaam to the crowd and perhaps to the deity residing inside the gate. I thought it was more to the crowd.

“Not less than a neta,” I scoffed.

In response Rai babu pushed me forward so that I was almost face to face with Babaji. I stared at his long bushy beard and shoulder length dark hair. A thick vermillion tika bifurcated his forehead in two equal halves.

Babaji had a smile on his lips which reminded me of a happy, well fed cat. His eyes were closed.

“Jai Babaji ki jai!!!” The joyous cries of the crowd filled the air.

Babaji opened his eyes slowly and took a step forward. As he did so his eyes fell on me. And then……he froze.

Just a few seconds then he was  escorted inside by his Security.

Was it my imagination? Or I saw fear in his eyes. For an infinitesimal moment. But it was there unmistakably so…

***

The ceremony was hour long. The madness of devotion was also strong.

I feared a stampede at any moment and advised Rai babu to leave before it became too dangerous.

As we were pushing our way out I received a pat on my back. One of Babaji’s guards.

“Babaji aapse milna chaahte hain.”

Babaji wants to see you.

I frowned, “Why?”

But Rai babu was jumping in delight by my side expecting some miracle to happen. He nudged me…pushed me…and was about to drag me inside when I thought it wise to follow the guard.

***

I thought it would be inside the temple but the guard took me to another room at the back where Babaji seemed to be waiting for me alone. The guard left us.

Babaji got up from the chair and came forward. One tug and his bushy beard was out. He was smiling broadly.

“Babuji pehchaana?”

Do you recognise me, Babuji?

“Ram Prasad!” I exclaimed.

Our erstwhile Office peon.

“What are you doing here? What is all this?” I asked in surprise.

“Kya karen Babuji! Papi pet ka sawaal hai!!”

“What to do Babuji. It’s a matter of survival. When they threw me out of the job without prior notice I was in hand to mouth condition. I had little children, Babuji. Three daughters and one son. I tried to find work but no luck. After running from pillar to post this was the only vocation that was left for me. It paid. It was safe.”

Ram Prasad confided that it was a matter of chance that he had come across his guru, needless to say, another one of his type, jobless-turned-into-baba. He took Ram Prasad in his fold, trained him for years and then handed over the gaddi or the “seat” to him.

“Par aap kisiko batana nahin, Babuji. Nahin to kiye karaaye pe pani fir jaayega”

But please don’t tell this to anyone, Babuji. Otherwise all my efforts will be nullified.

I nodded.

He took my hands in his, bowed and was gone, beard in place.

I stood there for a long time.

Thinking…

Of course! I wouldn’t tell anyone..

As long as it brought food to the table for his family.

Breach of faith….?

Probably, yes.

***

This is again based on a true story recounted by one of my cousins with a lot of spicy humour.

I remember the miniscule hanumanji temple at the corner of the gole chakkar (roundabout) where we used to wait for our school bus.

My cousin, almost everyday passed by, in fact rushed by, swinging a brief case dangerously in air, invariably late for office.

It was here that he met his out-of-job former chaprasi (office joy) who opted for ‘babahood’ and later narrated the anecdote humorously to us.

His contention was that the holiness of the temple had  devolved in the presence of the bogus priest but to me it was another story of desperation for survival.

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