“Speak…”


Movies can be broadly classified into three categories – (1) Pure entertainers, (2) Thought provokers and (3) Blood boilers. It is this third genre that Director & Producer Shoaib Mansoor’s Bol subscribes to. The blood boilers are precursors to upheavals. These stab, wound, hurt and make your heart bleed. These shake you up from century-old slumber of apathy, ignorance and indifference and make you wonder how civil human society is which so lovingly nurtures butchery and barbarianism in its folds.

Bol uses a bi-lingual format (Urdu/Punjabi). Its contextual texture is multi-layered as it cudgels up a whole gamut of socio-political issues having a striking relevance for the entire Indian sub-continent. Bol adequately captures the doddering but adamantine patriarchy in the wake of enlightened rebuttal – the effete and the obsolete asserting in the crudest, cruellest and crookedest fashion challenged by impeccable logic and cool rationale. Defiance leads to a sanguinary battle.

The President of Pakistan receives a strange appeal from one of the convicts. Zainab is sentenced to death on charge of murder.  But before she is hanged, she wants to narrate her life’s story to the media. Unusual plea…surprisingly the President gives his assent allowing Zainab (Humaima Malik) to recount the horrifying tale of seven sisters and their mother, battered, bruised and beaten by the onerous demands of a patriarch, in pathetic bondage of his own prejudices, obdurate to the call of changing times.

Zainab’s confession, “ Main qatil hoon par gunaahgaar nahin” elevates an apparently heinous and unpardonable offence to the stature of remedial necessity. Bol thrives on discomforting issues stirring collective conscience. Zainab’s heartrending outcry “Agar maarna gunaah hai toh paida karna kyun nahin?” leaves a shrill echo behind.

From female foeticide to rehabilitation of transgender, objectification/ commodification of women to corruption in the corridors of power, the menace called bureaucracy and the derogation of the aam junta whose plaintive cry is stifled unceremoniously lest it perturbs the power be, Bol weaves such contentious issues in an explosive saga of love, rebel, betrayal and above all dauntless courage.

Bol’s narrative is non-accusatory and non-judgemental. Bol does not tell but shows. The helplessness of parenting a transgender whom the society refuses to acknowledge as human is made home ruthlessly when Zainab’s father, Hakim Sahib (Manzar Sehabi) asphyxiates his only son with a plastic bag in the dead of the night.

It’s a quirk of fate that the austere Hakim Sahib is forced to betray his family and remarry a tawaiyaff (Prostitute – Iman Ali) whose obsession for Meena Kumari and a flawless talaffuz (accent) is nothing but a hangover of a decadent era.

Bol pivots around the paradoxes of a society in transition where the past and the present co-habit inharmoniously. Frictions are inevitable. The quiet waters have strong undercurrents. Bol disrupts this calm brutally. Its attacks are unexpected sometimes below the belt and at others head-on punches, resulting in a pandemonium of blood and gore.

As Mustafa (Atif Aslam), Ayesha’s (Zainab’s younger sister – Mahira Khan) husband tells Zainab, “The main problem of our society is that nobody speaks…”

And when Zainab does speak, a rebellion is reared.

Are you ready for it?

Bol was released in 2011. It broke all previous records (held by My Name Is Khan) becoming the highest earning film in Pakistan.

The Time Turner


Since the time I attended Art Of Living’s Basic Course, it has been my routine to start the day with Sudarshan Kriya. However, I must confess that even after lapse of considerable time, my mind tends to waver hither and thither whenever I sit down to meditate. The past haunts, the present beckons and the future makes me worry. In the beginning, I used to feel guilty. Meditation meant an internal tussle to concentrate on the ‘now’ while my restless mind kept on playing tricks with me. With time, I have become more indulgent with my thoughts during meditation and let them pass by like sauntering clouds on a clear summer day.

Last weekend I attended a Book Fair which brought back memories of the past. How my father used to shove in story books under my pillow in the middle of the night on Christmas Eve. The next morning, as I would bounce with joy discovering my new found treasure, he would smile and tell me that it was a gift from Santa Claus for being a good girl.

As I said earlier our mind plays tricks. These happy moments from the past, once aroused, must have settled heavily in my subconscious. Next morning, when I sat down for Kriya, my mind ditched me, as usual, and we went surfing down memory lane.

I was back again to my childhood days playing with bright, colourful toys, reading books and comics, dancing in the back yard, running after my mother, singing myself hoarse and shunning studies in general. Needless to say such reminiscences are always pleasurefull. I was transported to those olden times long gone by and could feel every emotion associated with those moments, smell every fragrance, listen to all the pleasant voices of yore as though I had a Time Turner wound in my hand which had taken me backwards in time.

Alas! When I returned to the present my Kriya was almost over. Surprisingly, I felt as though I had come back home after a long journey. It was time to get ready for the next daily chore. However, as I prepared to work out of inertia, an electrifying revelation dawned on me. During Kriya my mind had traveled distances, leading me along, where I could not have possibly traveled physically. The second realization that dashed in next was while I was time traveling there were two layers of action going along simultaneously at the mental front – at one level a part of the mind continued with the daily ritual of the Kriya in the present now and at another level the other part happily took off for a whirlwind trip to the past.

The experience made me marvel at the unexplored potentials of the mind which we seldom utilize consciously in our wakeful moments and the natural corollary that, once harnessed constructively, this ability of the mind to multi task ( or should I say travel?) can easily elicit stupendous results. Arguably, it also indicated that if mind could travel backwards it could also do so in forward motion. Couldn’t it?

With all these awe-inspiring thoughts, I also acknowledged shamefacedly, that I had to work harder still to achieve a few moments of meaningful meditation when mind would be still, restful and very much in control of the present.

Thoughts to ponder upon….

 

নৈঃশ্বব্দ গীতি


নিস্তব্ধ রাত্রির ক্রোড়ে আমি শুধু একা

আকাশের রেকাবীতে এক ফালী চাঁদ । জ্যোৎস্না ধৌত বারান্দায় বসে একা নির্জন রাস্তা গুনি… নৈঃশ্বব্দের পদচারণা শুনেছ কী? ঘুম কেড়ে নেওয়া রাত্রির আবেশে স্বপ্নের প্রহরী যখন জাগে একা!

বাতাসে ভেসে আসে চামেলীর সুবাস। ওই গাছটি পিছনের আঙ্গিনায় আছে পোতা ! আর সেই অচেনা সুরের মুর্চ্ছণা ? দূর, বহুদূর হতে ভেসে আসে, জল প্রপাতের ঊগ্র ছন্দে গাঁথা…সেও কী জাগে একা?

রাত জাগা পাখী কে ও ? আমারই যে সখা। ভোরের বাঁশীর তান বাজে বুঝি ওই।

জ্যোত্স্না-স্নাত নিশুতি রাত, মেঘের ললাটে হাঁসে মুখচোরা চাঁদ

কান পেতে, আনমনে শোনে, সে যে আগ্রহে ব্যাকুল। নিশ্ছিদ্র আঁধারে আলোর ঠিকানা খোঁজে, হতাশার দিগন্তে আশার রশ্মিরেখা…যায় কী দেখা…?

রাত জাগা পাখী সে যে আমারই মতন। নিদ্রার নীরব আহুতি জ্বেলে প্রহর-প্রহর জেগে থাকে, “সব ঝুঠ হ্যায়, তফাৎ যাও!” ফুঙ্কারে বিদীর্ণ করে নিষ্ঠুর স্তব্ধতা…

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বেজে ওঠে দেয়াল ঘড়ী সশব্দে…

ঢং… ঢং …ঢং…

কে ও বসে একা ? শুন্য সমারোহে, মহাকাল হেঁসে ওঠে, আদি অনন্ত পথ অতিক্রমণ করে, একই প্রশ্নের তালে তাল দিয়ে, বাজে বিষণ্ণ ভেরী…দুম্ দুম্ দুম্।

নাই চোখে ঘুম…

সেই পুরাতন অনুরণন…

আমি শুধু একা …!!!

আমি শুধু একা …!!!

আমি শুধু একা …!!!

***

যেদিকে দু চোখ যায়, সুদুরে কাছে হায়, রুদ্ধ করে আমায়, নির্বাক বিহ্বলতা

 

হা হা করে ওঠে রব, ধরাতল নিশী-নভ, বন-বিথী যুথি স্নিগ্ধ বন্য গন্ধ মাখা।

মুখর চতুর্দিশী, নীরবতা গায় গীতি, অতি পরিচিত  ছন্দে, বদ্ধ শ্বব্দ লিপি,ছিন্ন বিছিন্ন করি নিটোল নিস্তব্ধতা…

ডেকে বলে “শোনো সখি, আমরা সবাই আছি, তোমার চির সাথী, অনাদি প্রবাহ তীরে, অধীর অপেক্ষরতা…

তুমি নও যে একা…”

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সকলকে সাদর আমন্ত্রণ জানাই আমার বাংলা ব্লগে – www.vanderloost.blogspot.com

 

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The Lost


Sleeplessness is a curse. Feel sorry for all the insomniacs of this world. But there’s always a reason for the dreams to elope…a disturbed mind is an infertile land where no blooms blush.

The previous day I had had a tiff with my boss. Nothing unusual. We took it in turns to get over each other’s nerves. Perhaps this was what professional rapport was all about. But this time, it was something deeper than the usual which rankled more than I cared to admit.

After a night’s tossing and turning, I decided to leave the crumpled sheets and take to the early morning breeze. Refreshing, they said, it was.  The hushed moments of dawn…

Lonely streets. A sky honeycombed with baby clouds, the ones which you felt like crushin’ with your fingers. Soft patter of leaves. The stranded voice of winds. Rustle of my clothes was almost deafening.

I wasn’t exactly alone but. Bittoo n’ Brown, the two stray mongrels, followed me around, as usual – show of unfailing loyalty in lieu of a bowl of milk every morn. Wish humans could learn a few things from these mute quadrupeds!

I headed towards the park. A big park with shady trees and manicured beds – a handiwork of forced orderliness amidst natural disorder. Pacifying? A bit, but not so much as to erase the slate clean and revive the spirit afresh.

A quarter of an hour later it was time to return home. As I turned the bend, Bittoo n’ Brown trotted ahead. Suddenly, in a spate of rush, B n’ B sprang up and sped. Headlong they pounced on the boy unawares, wagging their tails in playful jest.

I ran to his aid. By this time he was sprawled by the road side, B n’ B all over him, licking and growling softly at the same time, an old habit of theirs to welcome surprise guests.

Yes, the boy wasn’t a sight familiar.  Of age six or eight. A broad, ruddy face. Lustreless eyes and blond head. That was definitely unusual, yes. We Indians didn’t boast of golden tresses. He was in a bright yellow Tee. The oversized denim shorts lapped around his knees, fastened to his waist with a broad leather belt. Quaintly dressed was he. The socks looked new but the boots were well travelled.

I shooed B n’ B away with a rebuke and pulled him up. Shaken and scared he dusted his pants. I asked the number of his flat. The answer came in stutters. Did I hear him correctly? 136 ? Or 139 ? Ground Floor? The boy fell silent. Anyway, I took him by the hand and walked along his side till we reached the row of buildings starting with 130 and ending with 139.

Just a few minutes’ walk within the block. Meanwhile, could have given in to mundane chit chat. But thought otherwise and allowed him some time to recuperate from the shock of sudden canine spright.

We approached 136. The door was closed. The boy now looked unsure. He stood uncertainly for a while then changing his mind turned towards 139. A corner flat, the windows overlooking the streets. Here he took a sudden turn. Moving close towards the window he peered through the mesh. I was taken aback. Why would he do that? If at all it was his home he should walk in straight…and ring the bell or open the door with spare keys!

I drew to his side. The room was dark and the occupants perhaps still in sleep. But outside the sun was reigning bright. I Squinted my eyes. Following his gaze, I could barely figure out the outlines of delicate damask hanging by the sides of a four poster bed. Strange! A mosquito net?  These days in the city were there still families who shied away from coils and repellents? I was rather pleased.

At this point, I thought of leaving the boy to his finds. The streets were waking up. It would look odd if passers-by found me peering inside neighbours’ flats.

***

The day was spent in usual huff. “Here we go round the mulberry bush”…I sighed Boss behaved well. Perhaps guilty, I consoled myself. Late in the evening coming back home remembered the boy.

De-boarding the Metro, thought of walking up to my flat instead of taking the rick. 136 & 139 were the flats I had to cross by. Curious, I slowed my pace nearing 136. A big lock hung on the door as though in mocking. The flat looked unoccupied for a long, long time. But it wasn’t so this morning. I can swear on that. And 139? In shambles, with broken panes and bricks bare, looked unclaimed as though for years.

“It’s been like that.” A voice said behind.

I wheeled around to find Mrs. Mallik, my over solicitous neighbour, always ready to share the latest in the neighbourhood. So well informed! She always managed to give me an inferiority complex. I, one of the oldest residents of the block, could never compete with her in so far as gossips, scandals and breaking news were concerned.

“Belongs to an NRI. No. 139. Haven’t showed up yet.  Not in the past years that we have been here. Now almost ten.” She supplied

“And 136?” Before I could check the question was out.

“Owner’s not known. Mysterious. Some kind of dispute they say.” Was there a note of glee? I quickly brushed the thought away…

“Why? Do you intend to buy ‘nother flat Di?” Her eyes shined with greed.

Oh no! Why can’t I be left alone from mongering tongues and roving eyes please!

“You’d have problems I tell you. What with the dispute and the owner unknown”! Unwarranted advice!!!

I shook my head vaguely. It’s difficult to make the Mrs. Malliks of this world understand that there’s more to life than succession, mutation, acquisition and the likes…

Death Defies


“Memories In March” is a soft cinematic brush-stroke on a subject still very much taboo in Indian society in terms of popular acceptance despite the occasional hullaballoo stirred by NGOs, human right activists, the gay community and above all the Judiciary with its historic verdict decriminalizing homosexuality (2011).

Aarati (Deepti Naval), shell-shocked by the news of her son Siddharth’s sudden demise, rushes off to Kolkata, to attend his last rites and pack his memories back with her to Delhi. During her short stay in the city, a grieving Aarati finds solace and support in beautiful Shahana (Raima Sen) whom she presumes to be her dead son’s girl-friend. It is, therefore, a bolt out of the blue when a visibly distraught Aarati finds out that her son was intimate with his boss, Ornob (Rituparno Ghosh). Thereafter, the screen play revolves around Aarati and Ornab, their quests, doubts and self-discoveries, a touching journey from incredulity to denial to ultimate acceptance.

Director Sanjoy Nag skilfully circumvents volatility and approaches the sensitive theme with extreme caution and elegance. In spite of the intrinsically dramatic content, the portrayal is distinctly understated and subtle. The anguish of an inconsolable mother is conveyed by a drawn face and hollow eyes. A lone egg resting on the egg tray in the refrigerator reinforces the sepulchral mood of irretrievable loss. The ice-laden deep freezer effectively symbolizes the stiffening coldness of death. The camera roves around an unoccupied flat wherein the telephone rings on incessantly and the whirring of an unattended answering machine wordlessly captures the oceanic emptiness that death leaves behind. On the contrary, Ornob’s tearful outburst subdues the audience into mournful silence.

“Memories In March” does not remain confined within the stifling boundaries of stigmatized relation and its complexities. It transcends beyond and handles the poignancy of eternal loss with a poetic grace which is novel in itself. Thus, Aarati addresses Siddharth in present tense. “I am leaving a bit of me with you” sums his final adieu on Face Book. The “I Love You” ring tone of his Mobile wistfully hangs in air. These vespers of memories bespeak of deathless presence. “Memories In March” unobtrusively repeals the finality of death and lends visuals to a timeless abstraction that has overwhelmed human hearts with wonder, fear and melancholia.

Again, in stark contrast, it is death which defies all earthly challenges and oppositions. It is by death that Ornob and Siddharth’s bond of love is eternally sealed. It is in death that Aarati finds the strength to accept his son as he is. It is in death that every worldly squabble comes to an end. It is in death that every man-made conflict is unequivocally put to rest.

Deepti Naval as Aarati is magically moving. Raima as Shahana is the pragmatist who takes advantage of waylaid opportunities to squirm out of a painful situation. Rituparno as Ornob personifies innocence of love and surprises by his naturalness and honesty.

“Memories In March” is a movie to be watched with an open mind and a caring heart!

 

When Life Was In Shambles


I had written my last blog on a heap of rubble. My house was under massive repair. It took no time for the workmen to hammer down the periphery which they had themselves outlined with great care a few years back. It was amazing how blow after blow they struck mercilessly till dust and debris mounted and bricks lay bare. I asked Jagdish, the head foreman, didn’t he feel bad tearing down his own handiwork so pitilessly. ”Main banaaunga na?”  (Am I not going to rebuild it ?) was his laconic reply.  Strange, I thought, how with amazing simplicity and brevity he philosophized the act and art of making and breaking, assembling, disassembling and reassembling, order to disorder and back – time’s calamitous and reclaiming mood in unison!

A month and a half later, life cartwheeled into the erstwhile, boringly predictable routine. But before that my toppled world had to be tidied up and put back on its feet – curtains to be put up, furniture  to be placed back, the closets to have a semblance of cleanliness, the kitchen to be made workable, the bathrooms to be sanitized – the infinitely haphazard to be compartmentalized into a tight and finite consistency, in order to appear ‘normal’.

And that, my friends, was the most domineering task resulting in sleepless nights and migraine-inducing hangovers. As I tried to assess the enormity of the work that lay ahead, the beginning seemed blurred and the end as far away as the horizon. There were things of urgent requirement, there were accumulations of love and passion and there were stacks and stacks of those which had long outlived their utility and usage. The last had to be disposed-off forthwith and the former had to be arranged carefully sooner than the blink of an eye, in order for life to become functional. It was the ‘sentimental stuff’, on which one gazed for endless hours with a wistful sigh, that is, if the whizzing hands of the clock permitted one to do so, that posed serious problem – those I did not know where to keep, those the flat could not provide enough space for, those were the ultimate baggage, not that I cared for them less now!

I realized how cluttered my life was, how ‘stuffed’ my existence and how constrained my domain was with the inheritances of the past, the urgency of the present and the intractability of the future. I believe every one of us has the soul of a magpie at work somewhere within. The cumulated garbage is the consequence, which had once-upon-a-time been ‘picked up’ in a do-or-die-kind-of-mental-frame now rendered redundant by time.

So what do we cling to? Is redundancy so easily definable? Today’s discard may become tomorrow’s necessity – the usual fallacious thoughts of a materialist. Giving up is not as easy as striking up a debate for or against renunciation, cooed the Devil into my ears. So I carry on, tagging with me the then, now and when, in that endless journey that we call the spirit’s quest, with the fervent hope that somewhere down life’s twisty curves and linear gait, I shall find the courage to unburden the Atlas in me and be true to my own self.

Freedom? That’s another voyage towards a distant shore…

Sang my heart…

AT THIS MOMENT WHILE WRITING


If somebody asks me what my state of mind is, pat will be the reply, “EXCITED, NO, SUPER EXCITED”.  Reason? I have just (a few days back) finished my first short story in ‘my very own’ mother tongue i.e. Bangla (“Bal Gopal” nothing to do with religious, mind it) and uploaded on ‘My Bangla Blog’ (www.vanderloost.blogspot.com). Here, the usage  ‘my very own’ is to convey/underscore the compelling drive/the immediacy of the urge.

Confession time…I always wanted to write in Bangla but did not know how to go about it …inadequacy of knowhow (software etc.), inability to type in Bangla, poor, that’s mild, actually illegible handwriting, distance from my roots and the inevitable lack of readership as a consequence, (or so I presumed), and so on and so forth. I am glad to say that I have finally got over all these mental/technical barriers following the simplest of fundas i.e.  to just write on, and I think that’s the grandest ground rule for any so called writer like me – amateur and inconsequential.

Writing is an experience by itself. Somebody said it’s a lonely occupation (for me vocation) but never mind that. What is more important is how one grows while writing – the revelations, the realizations, the epiphanic moments notwithstanding how personalized and individualized these are.

For instance, it’s strange that when I write in English I think in Bangla and vice versa. And that creates problem because my brain does not always assist my pen at the same speed. It almost sounds autistic. But it’s not.  What I am trying to say is that switching over from one language to the other is not always instant, at least, not for me. While writing, thoughts run ahead of fingers. Thinking in a particular language and writing in another, are not therefore, always in sync with each other. As is equally difficult finding the appropriate/corresponding words/expressions in the particular language-mode that I am in i.e. writing in one and thinking simultaneously in the other, at a given point of time. Suppose an English word which easily crops up in mind, while penning thoughts, does not necessarily find it’s synonym (or antonym at times) in Bangla that easily – even after vigorously rummaging the cerebral crevices at length – and the same happens while the train of thought follows the Sonar Bangla route while the pen is determined to cling to the colonial legacy – the Queen’s English – our adopted lingua franca.

The easiest solution is to find a dictionary. The embarrassing confession is that I don’t have one. The one dog-eared, torn and tattered volume (Oxford) that I inherited from my patriarch is so outmoded as to be worthy of shelving in the museum or auctioning as an antique. So, the next viable option – Flipkart!  But there are certain purchases which Flipkart cannot substitute. I was highly disappointed to find their collection very limited in so far as Bengali-English/English-Bengali dictionary is concerned. Had it been more elaborate, a trip to the book store could have been saved.  However, a visit to a well-stocked bookshop though imperative is yet pending.

In the meanwhile, I the Egoist decided to rely on my own vocabulary which I thought was as vast as the latest Webster/Oxford/Collins/Encyclopaedia (latest editions) all bound in one unmanageably huge tome. Sadly, it wasn’t. Dabbling in Bangla, I found that I have lost touch with the language considerably, thanks to my more than twenty years of cosmopolitan living, though, believe me, I am still a Bong in my heart and soul.

At this point, my being-a-Bong pride overtook all other shortcomings and I charged on. In doing so, I may have made innumerable mistakes – grammar, spelling, vocabulary et al. In the process, I may have also created/added/imported a few new words ‘enriching’ the vernacular, for which invaluable literary contribution, I am sure, I shall be acknowledged/awarded posthumously like all historically great writers have been in some point of time or the other.

In the final analysis, I wish the story will find readers and the readers, in turn, will find the enthue to adorn the post with their valuable comments as (or if at all) they try/finish reading.

Till then I keep my fingers crossed…

The next worst thing that has happened is that my flat is in shambles (read under massive repair). I am sitting on a heap of rubbles and blogging…which in itself is unique, and I am hopeful, the inconceivable inconvenience of the moment may prove to be adequately inspirational for my future writings, forthcoming blogs, story, poem, who knows what?

Till such time …again

Cheerio!

একটু খানি আহ্ মেদ


আমার সাথী ব্লগার  মোঃ আবুল বাসার ভাই কে অশেষ ধন্যবাদ । তাঁর তেসরা মের পোস্টে  অজস্র বাংলা বইএর ই-লিপি পী ডী এফ  ফর্ ম্যাট তুলে ধরার জন্য । আমাদের মতন প্রবাসী আগ্রহী, অনুরাগী বাঙ্গালী পাঠক/পাঠিকারা যারা বাড়ীর নিকট ভালো বই এ ঠাসা পাঠাগারের অভাবে বাংলা বই পড়তে পারে না তাদের জন্য আবুল বাসার ভাইয়ের এই পোস্ট এক আসামান্য তোহ্ ফা,  এক অযাচিত উপকার ।

আমি অন-লাইন বই পড়ার ভক্ত নই । অভ্যেস ও নেই ।  তাই আবুল বাসার         ভাইয়ের দেওয়া পী ডী এফ লিঙ্কের বিশাল তালিকা থেকে সবচেয়ে কম পাতার বইটি বেছে নিলাম – হুমায়ূন আহ্ মেদের “অচিনপুর”।

হুমায়ূন আহ্ মেদ  আমি আগে কখোনো পড়িনি – পড়ার সুযোগ ও ছিল বিরল (আগেই বলেছি)। তাই একজন নতুন (আমার কাছে) লেখকের আনকোরা নতুন লেখা তাও না কিনে পড়া – এটা একেবারে ফাউ পাওয়া । এর জন্য              আবুল ভাইকে আবার আরেকবার জানাই অসংখ্য ধন্যবাদ ।

“অচিনপুর” হুমায়ূন সাহেবের আত্মজীবনীমূলক লেখা । তাঁর ছোটোবেলা কাটে নানা-নানীজানের একান্নবর্তী পরিবারে  যেখান হাসনা (লেখকের মা ) একদিন তার তিন মাসের শিশু ছেলে এবং মেয়ে লিলির হাথ ধরে ফিরে এসেছিলেন। যৌথ পরিবার হওয়া সত্তেও সবার সঙ্গে সমান ভাবে মেশার বা সবার সাথে সম পরিমাপে স্নেহ মমত্ত্বের বন্ধনে লিপ্ত হওয়ার সুযোগ লেখক পাননি । ছোটো রঞ্জুর (লেখক) রাশভারী নানা-জানের সঙ্গে ছিল দৌরাত্মের পরিবর্তে দুরত্মের সম্বন্ধ । বড় নানী-জানকে (আপন দিদিমা) কখোনোই পাননি তিনি কাছে – উনি থাকতেন সংসারের মোহ গন্ডির বাহিরে । ছোটো নানী-জানের সাথে আত্নিয়তা ছিল বটে তবে আন্তরিকতা কতখানি তার স্পষ্ট আভাস পাওয়া যায় না। তবে নবু মামার সঙ্গে বড় হয়ে ওঠা ও বন্ধুত্ত্ব, লিলির পরগাছা জীবনের প্রতি তিক্ততা, সরিফা খালার অদ্ভুত উদাসীনতা আর স্বাধীনচেতা মনোভাব, বাদশা মামার ভবঘুরে জীবন, লাল ভাবীর/মামীর জীবনের শুন্যতা ও পরকীয়া প্রেম সবই সেকালের সামাজিক ব্যবস্থার ও চিন্তাধারার এক অনবগুন্ঠিত চিত্র ।  সব কিছু থেকেও না থাকা , পেয়েও না পাওয়ার শ্বাস রুদ্ধ করা বিষাদ অচিনপুরের সরফরাজ খাঁর (নানা-জান) বাড়ীর আনাচে-কানাচে, ইঁট পাঁজরে, দেয়ালে সর্বত্র বিদ্দমান – দালানে, দেউড়ে, সোপানে, কক্ষে, তোরণে, আকাশে-বাতাসে অপূর্ণতার দুঃখ সর্পিল গতিতে যেন ভাসমান । রঞ্জুর কিয়ৎ ক্ষণের আনন্দ ও তাই বেদনার সুর ছড়িয়ে যায়।

কাহিনীর প্রবাহ ছোট রঞ্জুর দৄষ্টি ও অনুভূতি অবলম্বন করে – যতটুকু রঞ্জুর চোখে দেখা, যা রঞ্জুর মনে দাগ কেটেছে বা রঞ্জুর বাল্য বুদ্ধিতে বোধগম্য হয়েছে – সেই সব স্মৃতির এক জোট । তাই অনেক মুহূর্ত ও ঘটনা অবিস্তারিত ও বেশ কিছুটা রহস্যাচ্ছন্ন । কিন্তু এই রহস্যই, এই ‘অবলা বাণিই’ পাঠক/পাঠিকাদের চুম্বকের মতন আকর্ষণ করবে ও গল্পের টানে টেনে নিয়ে যাবে। সময়ের স্রোতে মানবীয়  সম্পর্কে টানাপোড়েন ও নানা পরিবর্তন, ভাবনুবেগের উথাল-পাথাল, কাছের  মানুষের দূরে সরে যাওয়া কিংবা দুরত্বর নৈকট্যে পরিনত হওয়া, হুমায়ূন সাহেবের “অচিনপুর” , জীবনের বিরাট নাট্যমঞ্চের একটি ক্ষুদ্র প্রতিচ্ছবি।

পরিশেষে বলি হুমায়ূন আহ্ মেদ আরো পড়ার ও জানার ইচ্ছা রইল ।

(আমার এই প্রথম বাংলা বইএর বাংলা ভাষায় সমালোচনা। পাঠক/পাঠিকাদের যদি লেখায় কোনো ভুল ত্রুটি দৄষ্ট  হয় তাহলে টিপ্পণীর (কমন্টের) মাধ্যমে সংশোধন করিয়ে দেবেন,  এই আর্জি রইল।)

SYLVIA PLATH – HAUNTING POETRY


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BLAME IT ON VIMALA


VIMALA’S HAPPY POTION

Cervical stiffness symptomized by Vertigo can be the most incapacitating state of affairs. When the Ortho prescribed physiotherapy for ten days my face fell. I knew it was part of the treatment, and therefore unavoidable, but going straight to the Physio Centre right after a gruelling schedule in Office was additionally tiring! Of course the Centre is quite close by – just walking distance from home – but it is generally teeming with patients like me, the beds are limited, the machines are moody and the technicians at times a little impatient and gruff. Sometimes you have to wait just to begin with or in-between sessions which really pisses you off (sorry, bad language but it’s so apt! Sophistication is so inadequate at times…). So where was I? Yes, the Ultra Sonic Exposure, the Short Wave Diathermy (they gave me Hot Packs instead) and the IFT, worst of the package (Yeah! They call it package treatment, can you beat it?) ‘coz the machine seemed more exhausted than I was. And above all, it was the hunger pangs which made things worse.

I know, I know you would say why didn’t you munch a sandwich instead while walking up to the Centre or have a glass of juice before leaving home or carry a tetra pack with you to make peace with those overactive gastronomical juices. But, friends, you see the time-factor played such a major role. If I wasted even a nano second I’d be horribly late as my unwritten appointment with the cadaverous doc (he never smiled) up at the Centre was dangerously close to his downing the shutters. You know what I mean.

So, I thought of an alternative (Oh! I am so ‘intalligent’ and at my ‘shmartast’ in exigencies). I thought of diverting my attention from my stomach and concentrate more on my cerebrum – ecclesiastic musings to be precise (?). You are right, hugely inspired by all the spiritual articles that I am reading nowadays, I thought of changing my line of action if I could not change the situation. Where was I? Yes, I made up my mind to catch up on my unfinished reading while the Hot Pack under my neck burnt my back, literally so. If I complained the Bhaiyas at the Centre would just give the towel wrapped around the Hot Water Bag an extra fold and perfunctorily tell me to “late jao” which meant just lie down and shut up. Of course the ‘shut up’ part was within brackets, not mouthed, but so obvious.

So, here was I reading and what a compelling read it was…At first I tried my level best not to giggle but in spite of myself landed up guffawing while my co-sufferers gave me strange looks – and who would not? The lines went like this:

“Just as the Singapore Changi airport was approaching we were taken to the Executive class with our “cattle” class hand luggage and made to sit on the luxurious seats. At that very moment, my bladder, filled to a bursting point with gallons of Pine apple juice demanded a visit to the wash room. I was too picky to have used economy one. As I went and locked myself in the Executive one, the sheer cleanliness of the whole washroom triggered a long, highly relieved stream of converted juices. Even as I was half way through, I heard a frantic banging on the door, “Ma’am come out. It is time for you to be in your seat with the belt on.” But then the God given stream reinforced by the kind hospitality of Singapore Airlines wouldn’t just stop. It was going on and on and on and so did the frantic banging on the door.”

And that’s Vimala Ramu’s Color for you guys! Chronicling the mundane merriments, simple excitements and unthinkable experiments of life (that generally go unrecorded) with such panache that by the time I finished reading it every muscle of my body was relaxed and jingling with happiness.

The medicinal value of Colors proven beyond doubt, I made it a routine to carry the book with me while traveling or to any other crowded public place where the slightest of disruptions would otherwise be a cause of extreme irritation. But not with Colors. When I was pushed into the Metro unceremoniously by the misbehaving co-commuters I’d recall Vimala’s  pithy observation:

“Well, this is ‘Indians’ for you, warts and all. They may be without external manifestation of manners but equipped with a heart of Gold, ready to share their home and hearth with anyone who drops in, ready to pitch in when a neighbour is in trouble. It is only those who come for short visits that find us rude, crude and undemonstrative. But those who have stayed longer have always found us a warm, vibrant lot.”

And that would bring a forgiving smile on my lips.

Am I giving too much away? Let me then sum up (too late, isn’t it?): If you want a book that displays abandon wit mixed with undying optimism and catchy liveliness, Colors, is the one for you.

Contrary to the blog-caption, Colors, a collection of Vimala’s choicest blogs, is no culprit. Chapter by chapter, her mischievous laugh on the quiet (now, no more) at the myriad quaintness of life, its unexpected twists and turns which according to her rather embellishes than troubles our vision, the septuagenarian transmits to us the greatest teaching of all times how to laugh at one’s own self the loudest and the longest.

And last but not the least, I attribute my wellness to Colors, a real stress-buster in every sense of the term, and none of it to those whimsical vibrators, scalding packs, bickering technicians and the disgruntled lady with the ultrasonic probe who volubly cribbed every minute of her work.