‘Prayaas’ – Ek Koshish


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01.00 PM

The mobile rang…incessantly ….persistently till she fumbled in the dark to pick it up and squint at the number from which the call was being made. One look and she was wide awake!!

“Hullo!” She mouthed cautiously into her un-smart phone.

“Aarati!” It was a terse address,”You are required right away…emergency!”

She could gauge the urgency by the way the message was intoned. And the caller was someone whom she could never say no. Moreover, this was her calling…..the chosen path and she could now not look back….ever….again.

She jumped out of bed. Nimble footed that she was it took just ten minutes for her to get dressed and be out of the hostel, which she and many others like her, occupied.

She knew the gypsy van would be waiting for her outside the gate and the hostel guard would know better than to stall her.

As the van sped past the deserted alleys and streets she made mental notes. It would take almost fifteen minutes to reach the spot. She had these fifteen minutes to rehearse what she would say though every situation demanded something fresh, something special from her, which she had to improvise on the spot after connecting to the victim. And each time she connected with them her past came alive.

Minutes later….

“She is in very bad shape,” Said Mrs. Ramnath, “Absolutely inconsolable. She blames herself for the mishap,”

“Let me handle this, will you please?” She replied.

“Yes, I know you can.” Said Mrs. Ramnath, the social activist associated with juvenile rape victims.

She entered the room noiselessly.

One look at the disheveled bundle whimpering in the corner, an audible gasp escaped from her lips. Cruelty lay undefined before her shocked gaze. So? She wasn’t immune enough, was she? She moved quickly towards the bed and the next minute was hugging  and rocking the tattered and torn doll.

Infinite moments of silence ticked away before she could collect herself and start speaking to the child. And as she did so, she recalled another night, fifteen years back, when Mrs. Ramnath had hugged her  as tightly as she hugged the girl now…

^^^

Shazia waited in the dark. Soon she would hear muffled voices and staggering steps approaching  her bedroom. And then her body would be slashed with thorny blades whence myriad wounds, dripping blood and oozing tears, would once again reinforce the hard hitting fact that she was just a body. She should have now become immune to the endless agony and hardened to the nocturnal ordeals which had become an unalterable routine of her shackled existence. Yet, she pined for her parents who had ruthlessly shoved her into this hell-hole. Married (or sold?) at the age of ten to a man twice her age who pawned her every night for mere subsistence, she yearned for the sunshine kissing the lush meadows by the gurgling stream where she used to merrily play hide and seek with her fellow mates….

She tried to pick up those known sounds which curdled her insides. There was absolute silence. It was unusual, she thought. Yet, it was this unexpected moment of absolute bliss that she had waited for countless nights. She tiptoed towards the door at the other end of the room. The rickety get-a-way opened on the back yard. The latch made a screeching noise. She held her breath fear paralyzing her for a minute. No! No one seemed to be nearing the room. It was the store-room where sacks of grains were stacked. Tonight she had taken refuge therein in anticipation of a slim of a chance which might give her a lease of  fresh breath… Yes! That very precious moment was here for her to steal. And she did what she wanted to do for a very, very long time.

The door creaked open letting in a gust of air redolent with the fragrance of Haashnuhaana. She inhaled deeply closing her eyes for one nano second of overwhelming relief and then the next moment she lurched forward, crossed the courtyard in half a dozen leaps, jumped over the stunt thicket of a fence and raced through the unkempt vegetation unmindful of the jagged pebbles on the pathway lined with sharp-ended clumps and bushes. As long as her heaving chest and scarred feet could outlast her dauntless spirit, she simply ran and ran and ran towards a horizon outlined in gold and softly stroked by the wings of freedom…

It was after countless hours, a sprained ankle buckled her into a ditch near a stretch of barbed wires demarcating sovereignty, where she lay crumbled in fetal pose oblivious to the world around…

^^^

 Tickety Tick….Tickety Tick…Tickety Tick….!!!

There is a strange rhythm when the train ambles through fields, mountains, villages and cities. Just like the oscillation of the hammock as mother draws the strings to and fro in cadence with the sweet lullaby that she sings to put her baby off to sleep. Punnu’s body rocked to the metallic rhyme of the train gliding on the tracks…

Tickety Tick….Tickety Tick…Tickety Tick….!!!

And she did not know when her eyelids drooped over her soft cheeks and she was transported to the fairyland where the butterflies sashayed in rainbow colours over flower beds of glittering hue. The breeze brought in fragrance of a faraway land. Jasmine? Rose? Or some other bloom name not known?

As she played on the swing going right up to the clouds one moment while on the other her feet dragging on the soft grassy ground, the sky glimmered in bright blue shade and the sun hollered to the chirping birds. A squirrel called out to her from one of the branches of a fruit-laden tree,”Hi Punnu! What’s up? While Babloo, her neighbour’s cat, blew up hundreds of tri-coloured balloons with satin ribbons. The braggart with bloated chest thought no end of himself. Look! How he strutted around boastfully. The balloons had, by now, slipped out of his furry paws and were flying high …higher than the swing she was on. And then all of a sudden the dark brown evil-eyed Mr. Hawk flew in from nowhere and punctured the balloons, one after the other, with one  master-prick of  his sharp beak. Then and there the colours faded , the sky grew ominously dark, the butterflies clamped up their wings and vanished into the wilderness, the flowerbeds turned into clusters of untended weeds and Babloo, the boastful feline brat, was  to be seen nowhere…

Tick…Tick…Tick…!!

The hammock had stopped rocking and the lullaby had died down…

Punnu opened her eyes to find the train empty standing forlornly in the yard where many other empty wagons, goods and passengers trains stood in waiting. The shadows were lengthening and daylight seemed duller than the time she had boarded the train with her parents.

It took sometime for Punnu to realize that her Maa and Paa were not in the train any longer. It took a little more time for fear to register in her heart. And some more to understand that she was abandoned by her parents for good. Yes! Parents who were desperately trying to cross over the ubiquitous hurdle in their miserable lives called the poverty line by a heartless method of progressively reducing the number of hungry mouths which they were, by compulsion of being the providers, responsibility-bound to feed the bare minimum necessary for sustenance.

Punnu’s eyes filled with tears. Her nose flared up, cheeks puffed up and her lips pouted. She bellowed out a long wail in the hope of being heard. Alas! The echoes that reverberated in the unmanned railway yard did nothing but deepen the silence.

^^^

Aarati, Shazia and Punnu (names changed) are inmates of “Prayaas”, a non-Governmental and non-profit making Organization which rescues and supports hundreds of homeless, abandoned, driven to prostitution, socially victimized children till they attain the age of eighteen.  Aarati, a rape victim, is now a trained rape-victim counselor at “Prayaas”. Shazia, exploited by her husband and in-laws, was rescued from the red-light zone and is awaiting to be repatriated to her homeland, in line with the legal requirements of both the bordering nations. She does not want to leave the comfort-nest called “Prayaas” which she considers a place more secure than her own home. Punnu is recovering from her past and aspires to be a painter when she grows up.

More than financial assistance (which is always welcome) “Prayaaas” hankers for “emotional involvement“ of feeling hearts who are willing to be the mentor, guide, friend, philosopher of these hapless kids before they get lost in the nameless crowd of this over-populated country.

Come and Join “Prayaas”

to donate

 Twinkle to these Sky-less Stars  

And

Anchor to these Aimless Vessels

Visit Prayaas at : www.prayaschildren.org

E-mail at :vishwajeetghoshal@gmail.com or prayas@prayaschildren.org

This post is dedicated to Vishwajeet Ghoshal, the devoted head of the Tughlakabad Branch of Prayaas, a tireless spirit and a loving guardian, a supportive brother, a warm-hearted confidant of Aarati, Shazia, Punnu and many, many more like them!!

Prayaas – The Tughlakabad Branch

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Prayaas – Tughlakabad Branch

Vishwajeet Ghoshal in conversation with one of the visitors

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Vishwajeet Ghoshal – The Life Blood of Prayaas

Christmas Celebration in Prayaas

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Christmas at Prayaas

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Christmas at Prayaas

2015 in review


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Lei – Path To Zen


LEI - PATH TO ZENGenre is immaterial for me when it comes to poetry. Cadence cannot be imprisoned in any prescribed format. Beauty of poetry lies in freedom of choice of expression. Freedom, which the poet enjoys, by way of his personal preference towards a mode by which he/she wishes to voice his/her thoughts, or in absolute contrast, reinforce reticence. This mode may be a rhyming or a blank verse, a Haiku or a Tanka, an Etheree or a Sonnet, or simply prose poetry.

One may, at this point, ask how or why the poet can reserve his/her views while in the process of explicitly wording his/her thoughts. To this I say therein lies the magic of poetry – that beatific amalgamation of  the said  and the unsaid, the story expressly told and the tales implicit in the untold, what is spoken in so many words and what remains unspoken in deliberate silences, in between the lines, left to the readers to interpret in his/her own way. It is this allowance for individual interpretation of the poet’s innermost feelings that endows a distinct flavour to poetry. It is in this process of understanding and appreciating a poet, without having even an indirect acquaintance or established intimacy with him/her, that essentially an ethereal bonding is forged between the reader and the read.

As the noted Urdu poet Nida Fazli says,

“Meri aawaaz hii purdah hai mere chehrey ka

main hoon khamosh jahaan mujhko wahaan se suniye”

Loosely the ethos of the “sher” stands translated (gustaakhii maauf…my apologies!) thus:

“My words are a camouflage of my thoughts

Fathom my silences to glean my soul”

The great poet has miraculously and magnificently intertwined his silences in words. What more can be said of poetry?

So, when I got hold of my co-blogger, Somali K. Chakrabarti’s “Lei, A Wreath For Your Soul”, I was actually intent on deciphering the pauses interwoven in her eloquent word craft. Lei is Somali’s first born. While she tags her anthology of short verses as A Wreath, all along while experiencing the wizardry of Somali’s word play, I was acutely conscious of what lay beneath the garland of fragrant blooms, and by the time I finished reading, I was deeply inhaling the intoxicating fragrance of her soulful musings.

Yes, some of her verses have lyrical quality. While in others I find an uncommon fusion of a scientific temper with a poetic flair. Exceptional indeed!

In verses, where she talks of Fractals and Schrodinger’s Cat, an unusual matrix leaps up where Nature and her infinite bounties are measured with the precision of engineering skill. By the way, Somali is an Engineer by qualification and a Poet by heart. Needless to say, this two dichotomous sides of her persona get evenly blended to divine perfection in her verses. There is no faction between illusion and reality as there is no friction between her vocation and avocation.

A few examples to cite those infinitesimal pauses which make way for the exclusivity of poems, in Somali’s own words:

seeing the sun eager to

meet its shadow, the lone ferryman

makes a retreat

Or

This one which has a compelling influence of Tagore:

while I was seeking

the world far and wide, it

shrunk in

the tiny water droplet

Lei is replete with impactful visuals which highlight the essence of each verse. But remarkable are the imageries that Somali’s verses create, with almost a reckless abundance, which is picture perfect, to say the least:

does not heed to the dark

with its shimmering light

moon quietly bathes the ocean

Or

feathers tickle

in silence

the moon smiles

Wisdom compressed in cadence is a poetry-lover’s delight:

dazzling with a thousand stars, the gorgeous diva

beams each night,

those who went up to the moon saw

vast vacuum she held inside!

And this one:

 

bathed in dewy light

a splendor in marble white

floats in the morning calm

with memories i bring back

the enigma on my palm!

 

Lei comprises of fifty five Haiku and Tanka. It is the breeziest read than one can expect. However, the limitless depth of the verses make one aspire for more. I have already read it twice, or thrice? Don’t know. But I, especially, relate with the epilogic verse where Somali elaborates why she writes. Her experiential realization is exemplified thus:

sucked in spiral

of life, realization dawns one day

standing at the edge, all the while, I forgot to

look within, and traverse the way

Lei  has a Zen-like essence. In the foreword of the anthology it is described as a garland of micro-poems inspired by Nature reflecting on Life.

A must read for all poetry lovers.

Before signing of, let me share some of my favourite verses from the book:

 

colours of heaven

blend, make splendid sight,

none says

‘hey look, I’m the most bright’

And this one:

 

pliant love subtly unfurls;

elastic are the way of heart;

in proximity it yearns to possess, firms up grip

yet, contends with sense of being

when pulled apart

Or

 

looking back in time,

joining dots, I find, a few

moments, which seemed

once mild, have surreptitiously

shaped and bent the course of life

Lei is available on Amazon.

Its one of those thought provoking bed-time books which make you relax as well as prod you to ponder on life!!

I wish Somali All The Best for her future writings!!!

 

With Love & A Very Big God Bless to All My Readers!!!

 

Between You and Me


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Between You and Me

I am the Flute

You are the Song

Mellifluously blending in air

Spreading like fragrance in Ether

Intoxicating senses

Unbound

Intangible

Imperceptible

Emanating from my breath

Getting dissolved in my veins

Again and again

In concentric paradigm

Between You and Me

I am the Thought

You are the Cadence

Revolving around me

As I find my anchor in you

In infinitely graceful motion

Without a beginning

Without an end

Yet…

I am always in search of You

And You are always in chase of Me

Strange!

That we never Realize…

Between You and Me

I am the changeless Constant

And You are in an ever-chaotic Flux

Foot Note : This is my Hundredth Post on Word Press and is dedicated to all my Readers who have made this century possible with their untainted love, attention, appreciation and encouragement.

Love You All!!!

Post Script : This poem was also published on “Your Space” in Muse India on 24th November 2015. 

Blues And Blue


 

CITYLINE

Mumbai City Line

 

Decades back during my stay in Kolkata, we used to run away from the city during Puja holidays. Once it was to the lush green hillocks of Jamshedpur another time it was to Digha, the sea-resort, a few kilometers away from the main city. I still carry the jungle fragrance with me from the hills but my first love shall always be the salt spray of the seas. The long stretches of the shore knew my footsteps by heart, the roars of the waves filled my eardrums, the murmur of the breeze was caught in my saree pleats and the dark stooping clouds peered into my eyes like stern preachers of austere habits.

The next rendezvous was in Goa where I once again was enchanted by the enigma of the turquoise waves dancing in rhythmic unison. And then there was a lull for years when my eyes could only scan dead landscape of people marooned in their own islands of isolation, solitary in crowd and gregarious in silence.

Years I defied the inner spirit of a vagabond. Years I locked myself up in the cold, distant, sky-less dungeon of an attic. Then a sudden spurt of sunshine. And I was again free like a soaring bird heading towards the blue expanse.

This time Mumbai.

***

Mumbai – the City of Dreams.

It is also the city which eyes you like a total stranger, a little contemptuous, a little distasteful and a little wary. The Best Buses, the all-powerful locals, the bewildered novice of a metro and the curving, sinewy sea-link, its imposing frame dauntless in stance standing tall over the sea bed calm on the surface raging underneath. Its sturdy pillars entrenched deep into the bottomless depths. Man can really work wonders if given to proving their might taunting Nature and grimacing at God!!

***

After a chaotic rush against time I board the aircraft, stretch my legs in the little space provided between the rows of seats so closely placed one after the other and promptly go to sleep! Wake up a little while after and smile at my own self. Am I the same who couldn’t move her limbs or turn her head to either side without getting a terrible bout of vertigo and nausea the first time I experienced a flight taking off or touching down! That was half a decade back. Life pampers you not without a jolt here and there. Once startled out of that suffocating clutch of dread, you know you’ve won over another enemy inside you – your own self-created diffidence!!

At Mumbai airport, it is pretty much the same – luggage gliding down the conveyer belt, a sudden recognition and a quick haul before it skirts past you….a few steps more and you are out of that diving board positioned on the tarmac within the bowels of a modern architecture of brick and mortar and endless corridors of swift strides and impatient carriage, the only difference being on this slim plank you are volleyed straight up in the air and not splashing down into the cool bosom of the all-enduring liquefied Mother Earth!!

Outside, my nephew refuses to recognize me, “Where have you left your girth?” He asks smilingly. I feel like breaking into a desi-rumba when I glimpse that appreciative awe mirrored in his eyes. He reverses his shining black chariot as I sink in the plush comfort while the maestro’s sonorous voice serenades in an intricate taan in Raag Hansadhwani; the sun, now bleak in grandeur, winks knowingly before retiring to the west wing of his sprawling indigo mansion now brushed with pale violet, dim orange and a raucous red, quite out of place, in that palette of receding colours.

His house is on an unnamed hill. The road goes lopping in and around and then a dash up the incline making me giddy. Then suddenly a dead end. Home! At last!! We spend the evening watching TV and exchanging notes sporadically.

***

“Auntie takes too much tension!” He drawls without opening his slumber-glued eyes. The allusion is to the innumerable calls that Nil……has already and about to make since she is pretty sure that the city is going to gulp me down as soon as I take to the roads. I attempt at bravado, “You know I am a Delhiwali (the wickedest place on the globe) and have travelled far and wide (all bullshit, have always been a home birdie!!); I’ll be able to make it.” “Have you ever been to this city before?” She sounds stern. “No,” I confess, “But don’t worry.” Again that brazen self-confidence which I don’t normally feel deep inside. Yet….I think it has something to do with the fact that her flat is on the sea-face and am over-excited to have a glimpse of the blue.

The auto-ride is fun and expensive. And as usual the driver breaks into a friendly chat. Why is it that everyone finds me so approachable? Perhaps, it’s got to do with the expression on my face. The auntie-next-door!! I surmise. He tells me not to be too late as it is the Ganapati Visarjan day. I make a mental note to come back home early.

***

Nil

Dear Nil

Arunji

Arunji….Nil’s Hubby

With the ring of the bell, I hear hurried steps towards the door. A moment later I am lovingly ushered into the most aesthetically cluttered living room that I have ever found myself in my life (Sorry! Was too mesmerized to take a pic 😦 ) . Surrounded by priceless artifacts collected all over the world, the ornate décor flows seamlessly into a covered balcony overlooking the Arabian Sea. But what’s this?

I stare dumbfounded at the blue sky arching into an ever-stretching bed of dark, restless, muddied waves.

“Where’s the blue gone?” I cry in astonishment and anguish.

“Oh! It’s the pollutants which have lent their hue to the endlessness.” Came the unperturbed reply.

Aghast!!!

***

The sumptuous breakfast which is laid after a while is a nutritionist’s delight – a bowl of boiled Moong Dal with crispy multigrain toasts coupled with several helpings of delicious Saabu Daane kii Khichdi with a big, hot mug of green tea to sooth the palate.

A long walk down memory lane thereafter and I bid goodbye to my friend with a promise to reunite again in some other city some other time.

Such is Life…

***

GALLERIA 1

Galleria

My nephew hurries me up, “Evening in Powai! Get ready.” We cruise down the not-so-congested highway past the Powai Lake where a few of the deities are ready to be estranged from their ardent devotees. I remind my nephew that we have to be back home in time to avoid the maddening rush of the immersion ceremony. He shrugs his shoulders nonchalantly, “That’s way into the evening.”

HANGLAAS

Hanglaa’s

Powai showcases the upbeat Mumbai. Broad undulating roads flanked by malls and glitzy outlets of the latest brands in town. But we drive past these and enter into a kind of a desolate heritage building which reminds me of those run-down medieval churches. Parking the car on the ground floor we walk up to the first to find a sprawling market heavily dotted with interesting food joints. “You get lovely maachh bhaaja (fish fries Bong style) here. Ilish, Pomfret, Bhetki… ” I am awed. Miles away from the Eastern hub we get what we crave for the most. It is at Hanglaa’s (the Bong word for gluttony) that we get our fries packed and walk down to have chilled lime ice soda at KFC crossing over to the other side of the road.

 

Our chariot swerves homewards just as the benign sky takes on a duller shade of greyish blue. Oh! Do I miss out on the name of the structure that stands tall and proud at the main crossing housing the local bazaar redolent with fish smells and noisy with cheerful chirps of weekending men, women and youngsters?

Its Galleria……….!!

GALLERIA

Galleria

***

Wee hours of the morning! Am wide awake excitement surging up my veins. Though Ola makes me fret for a few hours by refusing to provide a suitable vehicle to transport an impatient traveler from Goregaon to Navi Mumbai, however, I don’t allow my buoyant mood to deflate.

It’s tennish that I finally relax inside the comfort of the four wheeler careening through peak-time traffic towards the outskirts of the city.

An hour and a half later I am watching spellbound the range of green hills fringing the sunlit skyline.

A spectacle unexpectedly serene and beautiful!!

***

IBIS

Hotel Ibis

Four or five? I know not the count. The stars are immaterial. Ibis, to my sensory perception, is posh, plush, caters to a niche clientage and lavish in its meal spread. But what is priceless is the bonding of three lone orbiters after light years. Three and a half decades is more than an epoch for a human life span. But we meet as though we were never separated. We laugh, talk and make merry till we forget that we have to lose ourselves again in the concrete jungle of urban survival.

Two days seem like a lifetime….

Every moment is history that we chronicle with our hearts moulded in love and joy. The will to live is exponentially compounded as we bask in our newly rejuvenated togetherness.

The three Musketeers. The three childhood mates. We scour the malls, gorge on fast foods, shop till we drop and share the untasted chunks of sweet and sour delicacies of the past when we had been strangers to each other’s happinesses and sorrows, without a choice, of course!

Parting is poignant. So is togetherness when we know it is short-spanned.

But we make up for the ephemerality of everything by making those nano-moments memorable. When we hold hands and sing in chorus, “Puraano shei diner katha bhoolbii kii re haai …” (Shall we forget those days of yore…)

And the silence in the room echoes, “Encore! Encore!”

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The Long-Lost Musketeers

 

***

Two more days in Mumbai.

Restive. Boring. Caged.

Am not used to lonely living.

I pray I don’t have to anytime in future.

***

06.00 AM.

We are again on road.

Dawn is yet to spread its smile over the shrouded face of Mother Earth.

Streetlights are still on.

The roads are empty.

And the booming mellifluousness of the maestro renditions a wishful chant to bring in a glorious morn.

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Bandra-Worli Sea Link

 

The Bandra-Worli Sea Link that connects the Eastern and the Western parts of the city is a grand manifestation of human engineering and expertise. It’s impressive diamond shaped pylons bear down on us as we speed through the cable stayed bridge. On our left are the tall columns of sky scrapers rising up along the seascape. What wonders man can achieve if he is not given to destruction!!

A quick tour of the city. The helmet clad cycle riders, the morning walkers, the regular temple goers…the health freaks and the beach scouts. We breeze past Marine Drive.

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Bandra-Worli Sea Link

The Gateway of India loses its charm in broad daylight.

A reverent salute past Siddhi Vinayak Temple…

Mahalakshmi Temple….the sea waves crash onto the boulders behind the sanctum sanctorum as the sun pours down its blessings on the city line.

Haji Ali…. an oasis of divinity paying obeisance to the sea.

Once again I try to figure out the love-hate relation that I nurture for this City of Dreams. The old world charm preserved alongside the jet-fast razzmatazz of a buzzing metropolis. The simmering underbelly of organized crime and the mirage-like magnetism of the tinsel town. Sapnon ka shahar indeed! A city which lures as much as it leads you astray. The dwellers wrapped in themselves and running against time.

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Will I ever wish to come back where I feel not so comfortable and less confident?

Time will tell…

***

Later in the day the airport raises my heckles.

The unfriendly counter girls, the apathetic security, the congestion of fliers.

Someone informs that a second airport is under construction near Navi Mumbai to divert the traffic.

I am optimisticthat  the next time we come to meet R we’ll take a flight straight to the suburbs so as not to lose on time..

Plans for the future up our enthue and add to our vision. Certitude is the greatest figment of human imagination.

Yet we cherish hopes …

Hopes to meet again

Till then….

Goodbye Mumbai….

Goodbye To Mumbai

Goodbye Mumabi!!!

(Excuse the pics….compromised on sharpness as most of them clicked from moving vehicle 😦 )

Deva O Deva

Deva O Deva!!

 

Sound Of Silence


book iiIn school, I used to hate studies because of the regimented time-table. In college, I tasted a bit of freedom but by then I had picked up the nuance of wrongly correlating learning with good results. In workplace, I was in a hurry to grasp quick and fast whatever my job demanded me to grapple with because for me that was the mantra of survival in the corporate jungle. Now, nearing the fag end of my non-illustrious career, I realize that I have learnt nothing. If only I could go back in time, erase the slate clean and start afresh. But given the present system of education of our country, which is nothing less than a grinding mill and a mass manufacturing factory, is there any chance that I will get initiated in the process of “rejuvenation” for one more time? The answer, of course, is a simple no. One can never truly learn anything if one does not ‘live’ the learning, enjoy the journey and derive pure bliss or ‘ananda’ from the source and the reservoir of knowledge, thus gained.

“Excellence begins where expertise ends,” says Debashis Chatterjee, in his unputdownable treatise on teaching and learning, titled “Can You Teach Zebra Some Algebra.” The tagline reads “The Alchemy Of Learning”. But it is much more than that – a must read for all teachers, students and parents alike. I borrowed the book from my elder sister, (before buying a copy for my personal collection), who is a teacher by profession. The book, in her school, is one of the recommended readings for her and all her colleagues.

The author says that you have learnt nothing if you are not able to tutor your mind which is as restless as a piquant monkey, if you are not aware of your own awareness and if you have not discovered the core of your being wherein resides absolute peace. It is this self-discovery, he says, that is all about getting educated. This is what our ancient seers and sages have harped on. Unfortunately, however, this is what our present systems have taken us away from.

In today’s fracas of jarring noises, solutions to unforeseeable immediacies and unthought-of calamities can only be sought and found in unheard silences which is nestling within us. We just have to see beyond the visible realities and pick up the sound of silences around. Otherwise how shall we manage the mammoth and the most unmanageable corporate entity of all times – “Life Corporation”?

It is this integral and integrated “enlightenment” that Debashis emphasizes upon which is not based on fragmented learning. He further urges all ‘learners’ to read beyond the printed pages of recommended readings and syllabi, travel beyond the stark walls of the classrooms and break down the compartments between Science, Arts and Literature. He maintains that we humans are a part of the wondrous whole called the Universe and in order to comprehend “The Incomprehensible” we have to come out of our self-created closet of career-oriented grooming.

In the chapter “A Learned Teacher Can Put A Whole Nation To Sleep”, Debashis writes “There is a difference between a learned man and a man of learning. A learned man is tied to the knowledge of the past. A man of learning is curious about the present. A learned man is bent over the dead wood of knowledge, like an ageing tree. A man of learning is vibrant and inquisitive, like a green twig breaking out of the soils after the rains. How often are teachers in the learning mode?”

He cites an example of one of his teachers who after each class would tear off his class-notes and throw them away to the bin so as not to give in to the bad habit of referring to the previous day’s notes thereby committing the mistake of repeating himself in the next day’s class.

 “A learned man can put not just a whole class but a whole generation to sleep.”

On Innovation, Debashis says, “Innovation is creativity + action + interaction.” He shows how a group of learners can be energized by free-flowing exchange of knowledge: “As a teacher, you can divide the class of thirty students into six groups. Each group represents a class of experts – scientists, artists, politicians, farmers, industrialists and the last group represents meditating monks. Through their interaction, you are more likely than not to get a whole new perspective on energy.”

On commodification of knowledge, Debashis writes, “Many organizations in the world describe their wealth in the form of knowledge capital. It makes one feel that knowledge is some kind of real estate that needs to be fenced in by organizational boundaries.

Hoarding knowledge as though it is property kills the spirit of learning. Learning is not about accumulation but about accommodation of knowledge.”

The goal of education is awareness. Education should not qualify a student to be competitive but it should strengthen him to be more decisive. Debashis opines, “Awareness that is not fragmented by choices transports us from a monkey to a meditative mind. In the state of choice-less awareness the learner can discover the freedom wherein she can act decisively without the distortion caused by competing choices.”

However, the best that comes from Debashis is his openness to learn from students whom he unabashedly confesses he could not teach. One such student of his was Manjunath whom he describes as “He was like the bird of the wilderness that sang, not to win a musical competition, but because he had discovered a freedom song inside his own heart.” An alumni of IIM, Lucknow, on a dark November night in 2005, Manjunath laid down his life to the consorted mayhem of the Oil Mafia in a hardship location in Lakhimpur-Kheri. His only crime was that he had sealed three Petrol Pumps that were selling adulterated fuel. “Yet,” Debashis writes, “…why does his voice still ring in my ears, ‘Sir, what is this life if we have nothing to die for?’……I was not his teacher anymore. Honestly, he became my teacher.”

And serving an organization, wherein such indomitable spirits have benchmarked exemplary performance by their diehard diligence towards uncompromising honesty and dauntless march of trailblazing leadership, the process of learning for the rest of the corporate survivors stretches up to the horizon where achieving is just not doing a job well but to put on stake every living moment for what one sincerely believes in …something that one will not be hesitant to die for.

A little about the author: Debashis Chatterjee has served as Professor IIM, Lucknow and Kozhikode. He is the founding Fellow of the Centre for Leadership and Human Values at IIM, Kolkata. His teaching career spans over twenty years and six continents. Recipient of many a prestigious awards, he has trained more than 11,000 school principals and 15,000 managers globally in Fortune 100 Corporations and served as the Leadership Coach to CEOs, Chairmen of Banks and three Heads of State. For the last five years, he has been serving as the Director, IIM, Kozhikode.

Dust To Dust


DUSTING 1

Pic From Google

The problem is that I have so much to say on everything under the sun that I do not know where to start and where to end. Well, to begin with …this is the festive season…a time to rejoice! But do we actually enjoy this ephemeral interlude between gaiety and gloom?

Now, you may say why oscillate between the two extremes ? My answer is simple because that is exactly what it is. Festivity always brings a horde of  preparatory activities. Coming to think of it aren’t we always preparing for something or the other?

Come August, the excitement begins…”pujo aashchhe…” Durga Puja is nearing! So, a spate of cleaning followed by a mad rush to shop for everything and anything. That “saare ghar ke badal dunga….” type of feeling which results in that unnecessary craze to meet self created deadlines. Now, after more than four decades in the Capital, for us, the probaashi baangali (Bengalis settled outside Bengal), Bijoya Dashami or Dusshehra is not the end of the festive mood. It is just the beginning prolonged till Diwali (and even after) which falls on the day after Baangalir Kaali Pujo. So, status quo continues…

Chalo now warming up to the topic in hand….

The worst chore during this festive season is the bout of house cleaning which we subject ourselves to and which is considered a must before Durga Puja as well as Deepawali. So, we go scanning all those spots inside our habitat, which we never in the routine course of events, even bother to look at or love to ignore looking at. All the cleaning instruments, gizmos and agents are out of the cupboard. And the brooms and dusters (and now leveraging technology to the art of cleaning is the vacuum cleaner) sway nastily everywhere, horizontally, vertically, concentrically till every spec of dust, wherever it is, is swished out of the homestead.

Alas! A dust-free existence, the ultimate euphoria, is Utopia indeed!!

My cleaning spree

He blows a handful of dust

And winks, “Now ! See…!”

Yes, that is exactly what happens. Today I bring down the whole roof wrenching whatever is old and dusty and rusty out of the house and sigh in relief, “At last! Its done! My house is spic and span.” The next moment I see a thin layer of that ubiquitous dust languorously spread on wherever I have ousted it from.

Perhaps it is His way of telling not to look for order in an intrinsically disorderly arrangement. Aah! But we humans!! Will we ever learn a lesson? Since the dawn of wisdom till that insanity called death beguiles us into oblivion, we shall do nothing but be doomed to spend a lifetime in search of permanence. A mirage so to say!

So, having gained this gem of an insight, nowadays, I take everything in slow measures. And after a serious overhauling spree I sit back spectating the obvious aftermath!!

My sister has a more practical way of looking at things, “Don’t be so religious about your dusting schedule. Its going to go dirty once again anyway.”

Its another matter that while we wish to keep our place spotlessly tidy and shiny, we forget to unblock the street drains and unclog the clogged shafts which have by now become happy homes for all kinds of infections and infestations. Thanks to our paralytic MCD!!

At the same time, while I cannot refute my sis’ logic, it is also true that we give too much importance to cleaning and beautifying our exteriors forgetting the fact that the actual cleansing our innards require. A real spring cleaning of all ancient prejudices and obsolete mindsets!!

Having said that, it is also another fact that one day we shall also be one amongst the multitudinous grains of abominable dust that this morning we have so unceremoniously driven out of our homes.

Till then let’s dust away to glory….

Just Dil Se….


RAVAN EFFIGY

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It was a spur,  I won’t say of the moment , whim definitely, spur of the whim (if there is one such idiom in English language) decision to attend the Raavan Dahan Samaroh on Mahadashami.  Recently, my boy had complained, “Ma’am! You keep me so busy I do not get any time to enjoy life” A serious allegation, indeed! I felt like an ogre and wanted to make amends. “This time we’ll go see Raavan kaisey Jalaate hai. It’s been years I have watched one.” His enthusiasm was infectious. I gave in.

The next thing was to find out where exactly it was happening near about. As it was fated, just spotted the three effigies waiting to be inflamed right adjacent to the main market during the day. There were many others but as I said it was kind of preordained that we visit this particular spot.

Come evening, we set out to watch live how Goodness won over Evil, if not forever, then at least for a day!

06.30 pm.

The crowd was gathering slowly. It was an open ground next to a busy road where as I said the trio was waiting patiently for the Godly Prince to arrive and burn them down. My boy yelled, “Look! All three appear the same.” They did with bulging eyes, blood-red lips parted in a rakshasa-esque grin and that pair of hideous moustache,  all combined together ramified the satanic at its best. I always wondered why did they look so grotesque. For one, Ravana’s nine extra heads seemed abnormally smaller in size appended to his normal one. With disproportionately sized thorax, abdomen and legs ( or the absence of them) and arms too, they looked stunted, perhaps in keeping with the average height of the Indian metrosexual male(?) Well! Ravana and Company were Sri Lankans, weren’t they?

 The expected rowdiness had always kept me away from such community-celebrations. “Let’s watch it seated inside our car.” My suggestion was turned down even before it could be considered by the complete lack of proper parking place let alone the right angle for viewing.

“Let’s watch it from the foot path opposite or the divider.” But the boy had already climbed up the short boundary wall taking support of the iron fence. “Plenty of space inside,” He jumped down. Reluctantly, I made way to the open entrance. The area was cordoned off by men and women in khakii. They looked as disenchanted as the Evil King waiting for his imminent end.

A little further in and I put my foot down, “No, no more, we’ll stand here.” The boy stood behind me with his arms outstretched on either side… I felt like one of those celebrities with personal security guards to boot. In the extreme opposite corner of the maidan a stall was erected  from where all the announcements were being made from time to time. A raucous voice kept on dropping names of local netas, influential big wigs and their kith and kin who had so kindly supported and made possible this bhavya aayojan for us, the insignificant aam junta. He kept on repeating himself, irritatingly so, for the next two hours till the import of the magnanimous contributions of our political leaders were fully ingrained in our dim witted bhejas. In between these momentous announcements, Hari Om Sharan sang to his heart’s content, how the monkey king Hanuman’s devotion to  Lord Rama was of exemplary heights!!

Darkness thickened so did the crowd. There were occasional pushes, pulls and jostles as people thronged in kicking dust. The itching in my throat was increasing. I had just survived a bad tonsil infection. The boy pointed excitedly to the other extreme of the ground.  Big cardboard boxes of crackers, sealed and unsealed, sat in rows. A few volunteers were entrusted to light these up at intervals to keep the crowd entertained. And they did…as the sky lit up in gold and silver and a burst of other colours in  shimmering umbrellas and other intricate patterns…some exploded in mushroom clouds to be followed by sprinkles of stardusts.

“Oh! They have spent lakhs and lakhs  on these!” The boy looked suitably impressed.

The raspy voice on the mike kept on a running commentary of how the jhaakis  were on their way from Multan Nagar, soon to arrive at any moment! But the wait seemed interminably long. I covered my face with the dupatta. The itching in the throat had graduated to sneezing at regular intervals now.

Suddenly, there was a rush and the voice on the mike earnestly requested to give way to the horsemen, part of the ‘holy’ parade, who had trotted in and now taking rounds of the ground. I wondered whether they were expert enough to control the beasts when the effigies went up in flames!! But there were more surprises in store for me. Followed suit the horsemen, were two more figures on horse back whom the announcer excitedly welcomed , “Behold! Rana Pratap ji and Chhatrapati Shivaji Maharajji have just arrived!” Will history be  rewritten now? I gawked. Rana Pratap was an unassuming persona but Shivaji looked like a stocky fellow more like Premnath, the yesteryear Bollywood villain of the 60s and the 70s. Anyhow…

The ground was uneven and it was difficult to keep balance. In fact, too exacting for my arthritic knees. All of a sudden an urchin sprang up from nowhere and collided with the boy to be grabbed by his lapels in an iron clasp, “Paad dunga.” Roared the boy holding me with his free hand. I shouted, “Take care of your mobile!” Where is your purse?” He queried in return. I showed him. It was in my hand. He let the scrawny figure go but by that time the stranger had taken the scuffle to his heart. He threatened the boy of dire consequences disappearing in the crowd to reappear again, with one of the horsemen now on foot. The lady by my side, tried in vain to put some sense into the boy’s head, “Jaane bhii do Bhaiyya! Wo paagal hai!” “Did he try to snatch your purse?” He asked me shaking with anger. “No! No!” I said. There was a hurried exchange with the newcomer who smiled at the end and the matter was amicably resolved. Phew!!

The itch! The sneeze! Now the sweat! “Let’s go.” I told the boy. “Aap kyun darte ho ? Main hoon na.” Reassured the boy, thumping his chest. I cursed the moment I had agreed to come. But by this time the fireworks were becoming more and more stunning. Soon, there was an uproar. The jhaakiis had arrived!! A band was being played somewhere. I craned my neck expecting to catch a glimpse of the oft-projected dhoti clad figure of the Lord dressed as an ordinary recluse (remember, vanvaasi?). Instead, I saw figures in black silk with stone studded crowns brandishing shining blades as thick as khadgas. A girl with a heavily painted face in zardozi. Sita Maiyya ?  My boy searched frantically for Ram Bhakt Hanuman. He was a Balaji devout. There was a saffron clad guy wearing a four headed gear. Brahma of Brahma-Vishnu-Maheshwar trinity? What was he doing here?

The ground had turned into a battlefield now as the much touted Ram-Ravana Yuddh was being enacted. It was overcrowded and nobody seemed to be listening to the frantic calls of the compere for making space. Amidst this pandemonium suddenly Kumbh Karn rose in flames followed by Meghnaad. Ravana was to go last. There were jubilant cries of “Shree Ram Chandra Ji kii jai!” And then more smoke, heat and dust..

The spectators in front reversed hastily to avoid being covered by soot. The man next to the boy hauled one of them in rage,”Who had told you to go so close?” A fight ensued. The boy tried his level best to ward off, with one flailing arm, the warring men from falling on me, covering me with the other.  A few more minutes and we were out away from  the skirmish.

It was 08.00 pm by my watch.

Everyone had taken to the roads by now, thousands of men, women, children…I told him to be patient on the wheel as the car lurched backwards. Once inside, I sighed heavily and reclined back.

“Ma’am!” He declared,”Ravana is dead but he has left behind a smog of pollutants for us.” He coughed. Good sense had prevailed at last! I thought.

“So? Will you come again to see Ravana’s death?”

“No.” I shook my head vehemently.

“Why?”

“My knees are swollen and I have an excruciating back pain.” I informed

“Never mind! Agley saal phir aayenge.” It was a resolve not a request.

God save me!!

Anyway, folks wish you all a very Happy Dusshehra!!

The Culture of Corruption


Central Vigilance Commission (CVC) is gearing up with a new outlook and a shift in their vision of functioning. From Punitive (implementing punitive measures after the misdeed is done/proven) to Preventive Vigilance, the latter approach envisages to put in place appropriate mechanisms at work places  to  kill the viper before it strikes, i.e., to plug in all those loopholes which provide the ubiquitous channels for the plague of corruption to spread within and around.

While human tendency is to look for and put a stop to all those external factors which visibly impair the sustenance of an ideal scheme of things, the crux of the quest perhaps lies in deep-searching inside the mazes of our inscrutable minds for a more permanent and deep-rooted  arrangement. When we talk of aborting the moves of corrupt forces at work, the reliance on sabotage by physical mechanics is only half the work done.

When my driver jumps the traffic signal or switches from one lane to the other on a busy road, on the pretext that it will save time, the thought which eggs such an action is to cross the finishing line before someone else does. When I pay a few pennies extra to install a new water meter at my residence, circumventing the elaborate official procedure, I am saving on that extra paper formalities and a few month’s wait that is required for the exercise to take its own routine course.

My next-door neighbour has that sly half-smile playing on his lips when he chants that “mainey karwa liya” phrase at the drop of a hat. He openly exhibits a sense of exhilaration and unattainable power that he enjoys by brazenly not complying to the laws of the land or flouting laid down rules and regulations.

My influential acquaintance, Mr. X, the pot-bellied seth, employs all the tricks in trade to impoverish the Government by a few crores by the end of every financial year. He humbly acknowledges that he has the capacity to hire professionals trained to do that.

In all these above instances, the underlying idea is the same. To reach faster where others have not or cannot by a shorter cut. Interestingly, it is perhaps the ingrained faculty of competitiveness in human nature that actually instigates recourse to such devious, roundabout and corrupt means to achieve the desired end,  in lesser time, shelling out at times more mullah and (mis)utilizing resources at disposal.

In my earlier post, the vendors would call upon the concerned employees with big baskets attractively gift wrapped  during Diwali.  Since, my aversion towards receiving such “additional benefits” was well-known, they would leave it on the doorstep (of my home) as they considered my non-acceptance an affront to their festival sentiments. At times, therefore, it is also difficult to disassociate  the aberration from the established social culture of a milieu. It is also a fact that living within a rotten system it is hard not to follow its regressive ‘traditon’.  But I say it is difficult but not an impossibility. And anything which is not easy merely needs an extra ounce of push, patience and perseverance. And of course! First and foremost, to unlearn the age-old practices before embarking on learning something new. That’s all.

Conforming to the truism that every action is preceded by a thought, the endemic infestation called corruption, that the law enforcing agencies of the Government are at arms against, thus, also germinates somewhere in the human cerebrum before taking imaginative forms penetrating the realms of physical functioning.

When the Netas raise a hue and cry over cleansing the extant systems, they forget that it is the people’s minds that need a good rub and brush to begin with. But doesn’t that also imply that they should on their own, once and for all, erase from their rule-books the covert mandate of brainwashing the polity, especially, in the name of the holy scriptures?

Corruption-free society is neither a misnomer nor a Utopian dream. It is just that we need cleaner, healthier, incorruptible minds to perpetuate a healthy, clean and in-corrupt systems. In these lines, therefore, it is much more imperative to figure out how to cure a corrupt mind of the disease first, in favour of a corruption-immune present and posterity, than to spring clean the arms and agencies of the Government of the virus which actually is just the outcome of the vicious working of a whole bunch of corruptly thinking minds. The second line of action would automatically follow suit once the initial exercise meets success.

At the individual level, I think the first step would be to halt and ask oneself  the following preliminary questions when the devil within clamours for attention:

Whether to choose the right or the easy path?

What are the pros and cons in taking the right path?

What are the pros and cons in taking the easy path?

What do we ultimately gain by doing it right?

What do we ultimately lose by doing it easy?

What do we actually put a premium on – the quick gains or the forever losses ?

I strongly believe that, somewhere during this Q&A session, we’ll see the light within directing us on the destined track….

Is Murder So Easy?


DYING FLOWERS

Pic from Google

Well its not a review….no. of course not! That you can read here and here.

When my dear friend Mathur Sahab forwarded the first ( or second…?) draft of his novel “Qatl Kii Aadat”, I thought that it was one of those ‘inspired works’. (I knew how ardent he was a fan of Hindi pulp fiction and Agatha Christie…Quite a contrast that is!!) So here it was, I thought, a combo of Christie and Pathak! How wrong was I…

Don’t know why I took such a whale of a time to finish reading it? But once I did … millions of questions hounded me day and night. And prime amongst those that sought an indisputable answer was: “Was it that easy to kill?”

Now to kill or murder has varied connotations. Going by the dictionary meaning killing is that act which leads to the end of a mortal body. End here means a physiological or biological disconnect. When inhalation and exhalation of breath stop and the body goes limp and the tongue hangs out if one is strangulated and the eyes pop out or go vacant ….uff! that was quite a graphic description…in short it means when a living thing is pronounced dead!!

But is it the ultimate end? No, there are thousand reasons why it is not and there are thousand more reasons why one should not think death is the sovereign remedy to all maladies of life…it is obviously not! Why? Because the highly spiritual ones will say death is just the beginning…while the mind steeped in materialism will say let’s see what was left behind….in terms of accumulated wealth….all boring non-living things (movable and immovable ones at that!), you see! What else?

So death has its own consequences….some are relieved, some are morose, for a few days, at least, for various reasons, some are indifferent and some are genuinely sorry that you died without saying goodbye to them. Strange I feel when I talk of death…that cold, limp feeling which has an awkward permanence about it….the feeling that there is no U-turn next..

Tagore says, “I shan’t die before I am dead”….yep! this is what it is….regardless of the fact that we are going to leave this planet earth for our heavenly abode one day too soon…………the realization which has about it is that doomed feeling of certitude and that despairing panic of never-to-return-again to this world of happy incongruities and topsy-turvy turmoil, yet and yet, we still have innumerable occasions of dying before we are actually dead!!

Do we realize that….ever? No, we don’t because we are idiotic enough to believe that breathing in and out is the sole proof of “staying alive”. It is not! I have killed myself several times when I  succumbed to a compromise after each failure or at every cross road where my aspirations suffered a head-on collision with the hard hitting realities of life…….the objective and the subjective considerations…………the former told me ‘go grab it’ and the latter pulled me back whispering into my ears ten thousand ‘good’ reasons of not doing so.

I killed myself again when I suppressed my inner most ‘self’ in the quest for survival. Did I take the easy route? No, I did not. I took the wrong turn? Yes, a number of times. There was a point in life when I thought doing the difficult thing was being brave and bold. Today, I am undecided on that issue. Yet, just very recently, when I chanced open a rusty cupboard and wrenched the creaky doors open, tumbled out a bunch of ‘clothes’ which were stashed in the unreachable recesses of those lightless shelves layered with dust and hinges  jammed with rust. As they poured out, [those old, forgotten, forgiven or must I say forbidden too(?) sartorial remnants]  on me unawares, for a moment, I was nonplussed and did not know how to handle them. Should I smoothen these rumpled ones out? And rearrange them again in neat stacks? Keep them back where they were? Or untie the bundle, sort them out, discard the ones which are ‘unusable’ and try those out again which are ‘wearable’? I couldn’t do any of these as they lay scattered around me. I died again and again and again as I failed to gather my wits and clear things out within me.

When I was young, hatred seemed to be a great motivating force. It kept me going for many, many years. I kept the abominable part of my life alive within me, prized battling strength out of these and thought how extraordinary was I to have them in my possession till it was revealed to me, one fine morning, that what I was doing to myself was arsenic………..slow-poisoning. I was killing my soul!!!

As away I move from my own vortex, I suffocate myself each and every way. As I hurt others with my indifference, I kill myself all the more. As I burn with desire unfulfilled, my death becomes inevitable, perhaps untimely. As I repent I murder that part of me which had once had faith. As I aim higher I get buried in an airless hole with no opening to let the oxygen flow in. I kill as I grill myself to be the best, to be the most obedient, dutiful, honourable, anxious to please and hard to get. The devil sharpens his claws and his horns shine in the sun, as I bow down to pray forgiveness to the Lord.

Sometimes, in the dead of the night I wake up and cup my palm to my nostrils …yes, am alive but dead……….a living dead! Can you hear me cry out in pain as my breath gets choked little by little and the hands of my karma lovingly squeeze my neck like uncorking a long-necked bottle of choicest wine…I smell death close behind…

And you said I was living? Eh? Haah!!!!

Murder is really not that easy but at the same time we kill ourselves so often, so easily without our knowing…………..strange, isn’t it?