Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life.
When I look back I get this inner urge to start afresh which, except time travel, is not possible. Having a clean slate to write all over again will be, I guess, everybody’s dream. But is time travel practical?
God has endowed me with His grace by giving me the power of endurance. His blessing has helped me to tide over many physical pains and mental agonies. Endurance has also let me give my adversaries innumerable opportunities to carry on their tortuous ways. At times, I feel I should have been a little less tolerant, little less patient and a little quicker to react and put a stop to the crooked ways and means of the perpetrators. But I didn’t.
It’s not to say I cannot protest and retaliate. I guess I get overwhelmed by negativity. Deep within it snatches away the power to rationalize and react. In that sense I am very receptive to negative energy which facilitates the opponents to strike again and again harder and harder.
With the amount of ill experiences that I have gathered in life I should be more equipped to deal with evil. Why I still get intimidated by them, surprised by their attacks and why not be forewarned given the intrinsic nature of evildoers I don’t know.
In contrast, I also have a very bad temper. Throughout my life I have tried to control it. Channelising emotions which are detrimental to our own selves to something constructive is very important. I don’t know whether I have been successful in this attempt or not.
I observe many contrarian forces interacting within. Endurance versus rage versus patience versus vindictiveness. Christie had once written kindness can also lead to crime. I found that baffling. I guess I should have learnt the art of forgiveness long time ago. Once forgiven forgetting the dreadful becomes easy. But as I have written earlier hatred, rather vindictiveness, has led me on in life.
Some find me overbearing. Too strong, too passionate, too obstinate to deal with. Too involved, and also too sincere. I now feel all characteristics, positive or negative, in a person in its extremities, boomerang. My over sincerity has resulted in being overburdened with work throughout. Whereas I have seen people performing less but climbing up the ladder of success by talking more about the little they did. I was always a quiet worker and lagged behind.
At the end of the day all calculations come to a naught. All regrets dissipate into nothingness. All anger seems meaningless. All attachments seem fruitless. When time comes to say goodbye what remains is repentance of not doing what one should have ideally done. Wisdom gained on hindsight. But is such wisdom of any use?
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You are very honest , everything you experienced in life and you accept with so much honesty ! I agree that in todays time sincere workers are ignored but that’s the character . Accepting your weak side makes you special . 👏👏👏👏💜💜💜💚💚💚
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Thank you Mala Joshiji
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Your thoughts on life and self-reflection are relatable. Thanks for sharing your insights on finding balance in our journey
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Thank you so much for reading.🙏
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Hello, long lost sister!
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Soul sisters lost in the fair in infancy.😊😊
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Hehe, exactly! It felt as if I was reading my own post. Of course there are some differences but so many similarities!
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Such a difficult balance to strike
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Yes, it is.
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🙏🐚🦆
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What a wonderful self-reflection post. What shines through is how you question. I wish I had learnt that sooner – how to question everything.
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Thanks a ton Suchitra.
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Those who are free of resentful thoughts surely find peace. Buddha !
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Hmmm. To scale to that level is unattainable.
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I could relate to your post. Change is not easy but I think we do progress little by little and at some point we realize our peace of mind is more important than any thing else. 🙏
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Absolutely true. I agree. 🙏🙏
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There is never enough time. A valuable lesson, when reflected upon, you can learn from it, experience.
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Life is full of lessons
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